Thursday, December 18, 2008

No news...

Artwork by Charlotte Ahlgren

I'm in limbo. Or at least that's how it feels. I went to see the consultant only to be told that the results of the test were inconclusive and that they would have to remove Hector to find out exactly what sort of lump it is. Apparently, this is often the case so it begs the question: 'If FNA's are often inconclusive in cases such as mine WHY ON EARTH DID YOU SHOVE A NEEDLE INTO MY THROAT?! Personally I would have been happy to forego that experience and go straight to the surgery seeing as that was always on the cards anyway. It appears that in this case, no news is...well... no news.

So, I will be going for surgery in the New Year where they will remove Hector and the half of my thyroid where it has taken up residence. Once removed Hector will go to the path labs for tests. If Hector is benign then that will be that (other than a blood test to check my half-a-thyroid function). If however Hector is 'suspicious' then I will have to go in and the other half of my thyroid removed and undergo radio-isotope therapy and go onto hormone therapy for the resdt of my life.

My plan is to try and put the whole thing out of my mind as much as possible until after Christmas, but at the moment I'm still a bit miffed. I do not like not knowing.

20 comments:

bunnygirl said...

Well, that sucks. Especially since the outcome could be two surgeries instead of one.

I don't know what to say except hang in there and plan for whatever little bit you can.

kenju said...

I am so sorry that the tests were inconclusive, and I don't blame you for being miffed. Prayers will follow!

Melody said...

Oh gee. I'd be pissed off too.

Mar said...

I am so sorry about the whole issue, BK...
Just a quick stop to wish you a merry Xmas! Put your mind on something else (I know it's hard,though)

Merry Xmas and the best wishes for 2009!

rashbre said...

I agree its good to try to move the mind elsewhere. I'm hoping to see some pix of these decorations of yours!!

Best rashbre

OldOldLady Of The Hills said...

Oh My Dear....I don't blame you! I would not like "not knowing" either, one little bit! And you are so right about the Biopsy...WHY would that put anyone through that id it is mostly inconlusive??? Doctors! OY!!

I pray you can put Hector aside till after the Holidays....And try and enjoy them.....! I send you Big Hugs, my dear B-K...
(((((((HUGS))))))))

Dianne said...

I have worked really hard to accept things I can't control - I totally suck at it but it is a good concept ;)

keep trying to be in the moment - I know it's not easy but it really does work if you keep at it

you are upper most in my thoughts

Susan Helene Gottfried said...

Yeah, needles are gruesome things. I'm with you.

Enjoy the season and don't worry about Hector. He is what he is and like most men, nothing we can do will change him. Idiot.

Niall said...

How frustrating for you...however, I firmly think that if the Consultant had any suspicions whatsoever as to the nature of 'Hectors'threat, he'd had acted sooner.I know many people who have had swellings on their thyroid...it is a particular thing up here in Derbyshire due to the high lime content of the water...I think you will be inclined to worry yourself sick over this,but please try not to,whatever the outcome of the tests...you can be thankful that you're in good hands .

Bob-kat said...

I'll try Niall, but I have been put on the list to be fast tracked. Otherwise I would have to wait much longer for my operation. There is no point worrying until I know more though.

Thanks for your support. All of you :)

Nikki-ann said...

I find that's always the worst thing... the not knowing. I'd be annoyed too!

Anyway, I hope you do manage to put it to the back of your mind and have a wonderful Christmas!

craziequeen said...

oh honey - not nice :-(

But hopefully they will take Hector away and find him to be completely benign.

btw - you visited while I was writing a new blog post - come back to see the latest post...you're mentioned!

cq

Thomas said...

That artwork is fantastic! Well done!

Carmi said...

I wish I knew why the best people were challenged so much more than everyone else. You've already had more on your plate than any one person deserved.

Praying this gets resolved quickly. I'm annoyed, too, when friends have to stare at the ceiling at night.

craziequeen said...

Hey Bobbers - NetChick sent me to say hi this evening, and to hope you are resting and relaxing with Bob and M :-)

Got yer tree up yet? :-)

cq

Oracle said...

I had a close call, and they took it all just in case not knowing sucks balls doesnt it....

My thoughts are with you BK

best wishes

L

p.s. here via Tanya

even though we've met before lol

moon said...

How frustrating for you! Like u said, why put u through that when there was a strong chance u wouldnt know much anyway, sheesh!! You know we are all still thinking of you and sending positive thoughts your way...I hope you have a nice xmas and try to focus on that rather then the surgery for now, although its easier said then done...Hugs from Canada..

R. Sherman said...

I apologize for not being around sooner. The EMBLOS went into the hospital for emergency surgery on Thursday and I've been busy.

Know you continue to be in our thoughts and prayers. In fact, at the hospital today, the EMBLOS asked about you.

Cheers.

OldOldLady Of The Hills said...

Hi My Dear B-K...Hope you are feeling as well as possible and that you are enjoying a bit of this Christmas Holiday! I hope Thursday will be a day filled with Joy and Good Friends and Glorious Food, too!
Hugs To You & Bob....
(((((HUGS)))))

David said...

wishing you the BEST of health and a happy and blessed Christmas.

do keep us posted