Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Happy New Year!

January is named after the god 'Janus' who had two faces and could look forward to the new year and back on the old one. Once more I find that I will be glad to see the back of this last year. It has been a year of ups and downs and for a time there I wondered if I would ever get through it. Like everything though, 2008 too, has passed and like a shares chart (and unlike our economy) I find my stock rising after one of my lowest ebbs.

At the start of the year (and for a good few months) I was dealing with the emotional fallout of the preceding year. Looking back I now realise how emotionally drained I was and I honestly do not know how I didn't have some sort of breakdown and quite frankly I think the old joke is true: I just didn't have the time or the energy to have one. My relationship with my family is still distant and I am still persona non grata with my brother (and that suits me fine actually as I have come to realise that I actually do not like him). 2008 has been a period of time where I have been deep in review and have examined many things that I once held true. I have changed the things I could not accept and accepted the things I could not change. It has been a long road but I have travelled it and I am STILL here.

I could not accept the stress of my last job (sabotage of my projects, covering for my boss who was off ill with no support, long hours etc.) and so I dug my escape tunnel and changed jobs in July, and hell I even got promoted. I also got my MBA Masters Degree after 5 years of studying. I have come to accept the situation with my family and the things that happened in 2007 (so much loss, so much meanness, so much pain). I have come to accept that I cannot change the way they behave and so I have healed relationships with all but my brother who refuses to behave reasonably. I accept this too though I do not like it. With acceptance has come the first feeling of inner peace I have felt in a very long time.

I already know that 2009 is going to initially bring me something unpleasant in the shape of surgery (9th Jan), but that will be the end of Hector (my thyroid lump) and I am hoping for good news once the test report comes back from the path lab.
I will also celebrate a milestone birthday and rather than dreading it, I intend to celebrate with a big holiday somewhere. The rest of it I will make up as I go along and I hope to be better equipped to cope with anything else that is thrown at me. I am certainly stronger a year on than I was at the start of the year.

I am sincerely optimistic that 2009 will be a kinder year and that my stock will continue to rise. I do not make New Year resolutions but, like Janus I do face the coming year with hope and the resolve to put 2008 behind me where it belongs. I wish all of you a prosperous New Year, filled with health, wealth and happiness, especially for those of you whom I know have also had difficult times. I wish it for myself too.


kenju said...

I join you in that wish, Bob-kat. For health, happiness and peace in 2009!

craziequeen said...

Hey hon :-)

I am thinking that 2009 will be a good year for you....after the initial blip that is 'Hector'.
You deserve only good things in 2009!

Happy New Year, babe!! :-)


pink dogwood said...

Wishing you a healthy, happy New Year!!!

Nikki-ann said...

Happy New Year and all the best for 2009! A new year is for new beginnings and you'll be beginning this year without Hector! :D

rashbre said...

Here's to a good 2009.

My best wishes for a Happy New Year!

OldOldLady Of The Hills said...

Amen, Amen! I'm with you on ALL these wishes, my dear....May your 2009 be a much better year than you have jusy been through---And Especially, BEST WISHES for Hector's departure with 'no strings'....!


Susan Helene Gottfried said...

Happy New Year, my friend. Once Trevor gets to you, things will swing in the right, positive direction.

And if not, I'll send you the still-unposted Rotten Eggs soapbox speech of his. That WILL help. I promise.

David said...

milestone birthday... ? heck, darlin' I have so many of those I should be a scenic highway.

Praying Gods healing power to you and your thyroid. In Jesus name, be whole. Tumor be gone. Amen

Smiler said...

I wish you all the best Bob-kat. It's time you got a little break and had the opportunity to enjoy all you've accomplished. My thoughts are with you.

xx Ilana

Dianne said...

you got a new job and then a promotion and completed your MBA - ALL in the midst of breathtaking stress and upheaval

you rock girl!

I've told you before - but I like repeating it - that I think you're an impressive person with a wonderful heart and soul

we share some family issues so I know how that can pull at you/pull you down and yet you soar

Hector is NO match for you

All the best kiddo - I'm on your side :)

mikealthouse said...

Hey BK!

I know you'll be just fine. You are a survivor... how do I know? Well, let's just say it takes one to know one.

As far as acceptance, it does appear to be the key to serenity. It took me a very long time to accept just that!

I hope this year is the best ever for you!


PS: Tanya sent me, but I was on my way anyway.

PPS: I am going to sign in using OpenID and my new WordPress blog - hope it works.

If not, you know you can always find me at the 25 Year Plan

d.challener roe said...

You said you got skipped, so I thought I'd stop by even though you weren't my assignment.

Good luck with the surgery, and Happy New Year.

NetChick sent me...

Monica said...

Netchick sent me to say hi!

Wishing you a Happy New Year and I'm off to see the photo blog! I'm a photographer so I'm always interested in what others have photographed.


mw said...

I'm impressed that you've chosen acceptance and now are looking forward to a new and better year. That takes strength. My best wishes regarding Hector, and more wishes for a good and happy 2009.

craziequeen said...

Hey sweetie - I have Dear Fatty ready for deployment :-)
You are going to love it!

NetChick sent me to see you this afternoon..

And you never know, life can be full of surprises - all the better when shared with friends :-)


Nikki-ann said...

Me again! NetChick sent me this time :) Good luck with the surgery.

Bernie said...

I do hope that for you, 2009 is a great year! For us, hopefully it will be a better one and that we will not have anymore miscarriages!

NetChick sent me to say HI on a summery Sydney morning...

David said...

As the sun set under the dark winter clouds and the crimson and orange light danced across the frozen lake I prayed for my friends, I prayed for you and your health. God is watching over you.