Monday, June 22, 2009

Soooo tired

I am tired. Very tired. No, that doesn't sum it up enough. I am tired down to the very cells in my bones. I am so tired I have no energy to do anything. I am writing this in a good moment and to tell you the truth if I closed my eyes I would go to sleep right here, right now on the sofa, sat bolt upright with my laptop.

I constantly feel listless. Doing anything feels like wading through treacle with a huge weight on my back whilst going uphill in gale force winds. I am finding it hard to motivate myself to do anything, let alone actually do anything. Work is very stressful and busy at the moment also, which isn't helping at all and it feels like things at home are falling apart as housework remains undone because I'm too busy falling asleep. It's all very frustrating. I have made an appointment with the doctor as something is clearly not right and the only thing that is obvious, even to my confused and tired mind, is that this can't continue. I feel crappy and if I had the energy I'd probably cry.

So, I doubly appreciate those of my blog friends who pop by here to say hello. I am sorry I have been neglecting you and I owe you all a visit and just as soon as I can fit you in between naps.

Not a lot else going on in my life at the moment (no energy) but it is my birthday this Sunday coming when I celebrate a milestone birthday. Lord knows I don't feel that old but the calendar assures me it's true. I'm going away for the weekend to celebrate with M as if I waited for my family to throw a party or something I'd turn blue and fall over if I held my breath. It has ever been thus and quite frankly I'd rather have a quiet time away then a few drinks with a couple of friends another time. One plus point of getting older is you know who your real friends are, and it isn't always your family. Friends are indeed, the family you choose.

Of course, when I get back home after my weekend I get my kittens which are my birthday present to myself. The purrfect present! I know it's a bad joke but hey it's the best I could do on my batteries. If you see the Duracell bunny tell him I need a recharge. Thanks!

16 comments:

bunnygirl said...

If you're eating a nutritious diet and getting plenty of sleep, there's no reason to be that tired. I'm glad you'll be seeing the doc soon and I hope he or she can help.

Kittens will help, too. They cure a lot of ailments.

Bob-kat said...

Bunnygirl - I know it's due to hypothyroidism as I had half my thyroid removed recently. Just lately I have become much worse though :(

Nikki-ann said...

Good luck with the drs appointment... I hope they get some energy into you :)

I bet you can't wait for those kittykats to arrive :)

Kathryn said...

At the risk of sounding unsympathetic: welcome to my world!

It is so very hard, isn't it? I hope it gets better for you soon. Happy Birthday, early, & i hope you have a wonderful day. Friends, indeed make up many of those blank spots left by the families we are "stuck with"!

And, i'm so excited for you to be bringing home kittens. That is excitement, indeed, even tho i know you still miss Bob so much.

Be praying for you.

kenju said...

I am fairly certain your meds need to be adjusted. I hope the doc can get you right again. If I forget, please have a happy birthday and take care of yourself!

Bob-kat said...

Thanks Kenju. I'm not on meds at the moment as the docs seem to think that the thyroid that is left will somehow start to cope. It's been nearly six months now so I'm hoping they will listen to me. Fingers crossed!

Melody said...

Well that is no good! Try and keep yourself well and enjoy your weekend away...

Zeus said...

I hope you feel better soon, Bob-kat. Nothing stinks more than having a bout of fatigue and not knowing where it is stemming from.

Susan Helene Gottfried said...

I've got an eye out for the Duracell bunny. Have no fear. I'll send him your way.

We understand what you're dealing with, darling. Take your time and get better; you're much more valuable to us that way.

Love and kisses--

Sleepypete said...

Happy birthday soon :-) Remember to get those doughnuts for the team, although I get the feeling you might be recruiting a runner to get 'em for you ...

Hang in there :-)

Niall young said...

I'm sure the doctors will set things right...it must surely be connected to your thyroid problems..after all, thyroxin controls your metabolism.

It's awful to feel so run down and exausted..I really hope things get sorted soon!

PS..'Landmark'birthdays are only as landmarkish as we let them be!

Dianne said...

the kittens will help - something tells me you're best when caring for someone other than yourself -

I hope the doc helps, I empathize - it's exhausting to constantly try to wind yourself up

hugs

OldOldLady Of The Hills said...

So sorry to read of this terrible tiredness that plagues you my dear....I hope you can see the doctor VERY VERY SOON....!

I wish you a VERY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY, My Dear....as you know, ,ine is the day before yours....(Not the happiest of Birthdays for me, I'm afraid....)
I hope you have a lovely weekendf with M and that getting your dear kitties will be the Best Medicine, EVER!

Roxie, Sammy and Andy said...

Hello! It's been so long since we have stopped by to see you. We hope everything goes well at the doctor's office and you get back your energy. Have a happy birthday. We will be sending birthday wishes across the pond ... and dachsie kisses. If you feel a damp spot or two on your cheek, those are our kisses!

Roxie, Sammy & Andy
Mom says "Happy Birthday" too!

Smiler said...

I know all too well what you're talking about. This has been a problem of mine all my life and so far there is no explanation for it. When I feel that way, a lot of non-essentials are left undone because it's all I can do to just keep myself breathing. I hope they find a fix for you so you can enjoy your lovely little kitties all the more.

Shephard said...

Congrats on the new kittens, can't wait to see photos! I'm sure they'll be just what the doctor ordered.
~S