Tuesday, May 12, 2009

One week on...

I've not felt like blogging much this past week. I thought I would spare you all my grief and mourn privately. I was devastated by Bob's death but one week on I am coping with the huge gaping hole this small dear cat left behind. The photo is of Bob two days before he died. It was just a quick pic taken with a mobile phone but I love it.

Thank you to everyone who left condolences here or on FaceBook for me and also to two wonderful blogger friends who sent me emails. I very much appreciated them.

There is not much else to tell really. Life goes on. The restructuring at work continues apace though it seems that no-one really seems to know what is going on. Isn't communication wonderful? I took my sister her birthday present of a digital photo frame and on the way up the motorway we had a little excitement when we received a call from M's brother who was on the hard shoulder with his vehicle on fire. The weird thing is we were literally just two minutes from him when he rang for help. Now, what are the chances of that happening? The fire engines turned up and put out the blaze, the highways agency closely followed them and closed the lane and it was all over quite quickly really. We left them there waiting for the road rescue breakdown truck to arrive. Luckily real life didn't mirror movie art and the car didn't explode, but I got a little concerned when the fire was near the tyres. Gas under pressure plus heat is not the best combination really.

Unless you really want to hear about my chores that is pretty much all I have to tell. When I feel more like it I will post some more photos from my Barcelona trip. I have much to share, but right now I'm not in the mood. Grief is tiring but I'm working on feeling better.

17 comments:

Dianne said...

grief is exhausting but necessary, healing actually

I love that photo of Bob! :)
what a face. he loves his Mom.

I can only imagine how much it hurts yet comforts to look at that photo

I look forward to the Barcelona photos - whenever you're ready - time is not linear, we all have our own clocks

hugs lady

Susan Helene Gottfried said...

Hang in there, darling.

Hugs--

bunnygirl said...

That's the face of a kitty-boy who loves his mom and knows she'll always do right by him, even if it hurts.

I've been unpleasantly surprised at how long I grieve a dear pet. Tid has been gone almost a year and I still cry.

It takes as long as it takes, and the important thing is to keep moving forward and do the occasional good deed for other critters in need. I like to think our friends would want that of us.

pink dogwood said...

I am so sorry to hear of your loss - I somehow missed your previous post. I wish I could say something to make you feel better :(

kenju said...

I understand, and you take all the time you need. We'll be here.

OldOldLady Of The Hills said...

My Dear Bob-Kat...that is the dearest picture...He was such a beautiful boy....I know the house has to feel so very empty without him there....
I agree that Grief is just about the most tiring thing there is....All the emotions...it is hard on the body; Harder than we realize I think....
My heart goes out to you, my dear B-K....it will take time, so just don't worry about blogging or visiting or anything except taking good care of yourself.
(((((((HUGS)))))))

Mar said...

Glad to hear from you, take your time, BK.
That's a sweet picture of Bob.
Love the pillow with the paw-print...

Zeus said...

You will work through this, and you will be able to heal. It will just take time, but allow yourself to move through it and to experience it. We are thinking of you here...

Marina, Zeus, Isis, and Ares

R. Sherman said...

Ditto to Susan's thoughts. Post when you want.

Cheers.

CeivaJoe said...

I just happened to find this post and I was touched. I have a 21 year old cat and I just "dread the day" I know will come.

But because of what I do I have learned to take tons of pictures... so at least I will have them forever.

My best to you.

CeivaJoe

Beckie said...

I was on a fly by checking in on you, I haven't been by in ages, and I see your devastating news. I am so sorry for your loss.

((Hugs))

Nepharia said...

Glad to see you are still posting. Love hearing about everything. Keep writing. Don't ever stop.

moon said...

I love that pic..
I think alot of companys are revamping/restructuring. Were hubby works they are doing it and also laying off many ppl. Whats so maddening is that many companies are using the excuse of the recession to cut jobs and expect alot more from ppl, suppresses raises and bonuses...even when they arent hurting, but making money nonetheless...I am all for restructure when needed and used to try to keep jobs or just staying afloat but to many big corp are using this as a way to make even more money ...makes me sick....sorry, got on a soap box for a moment lol

Sarch said...

Hang tough BK....time.

OldOldLady Of The Hills said...

Just stopping by to say HI and let you know I am thinking of you and your dear little sweet Bob....!
In that picture, which I just love, he looks so much like "Baby" one of my first cats....(((((((HUGS))))))), my dear.

Michael Manning said...

Bob-Kat: Allow yourself as much time as you need. Your Cat surely knew he was loved and cared for. I have you in my prayers!

Ramona said...

Loved your previous post...what a beautiful tribute to remember him by. It's amazing how our pets truly do pick us out of the crowd and how they stick by us through thick and thin.
I'm truly glad that I met you and Bob through Weekend Cat Blogging. His spirit will live on for a long, long time.